My Thoughts 2-7-12

Waking up to a world thats forever cold
With the sun's rays shining but we cant feel its warmth
Whats the purpose of this life does anyone know
I think i do but who really knows
Everyday steady striving to survive
We forget to live the life that we continue to question why
Why do we chase things that only bring temporary happiness?
Why do we constantly jumble the real meaning of success?
Wanting to just be happy
We refuse to do the things that will truly bring us joy
and instead play with our lives as if they were toys
Men not caring about their babies
Women steady having babies then struggles to raise them
Why? When its all so simple
Do the things that make you happy and brings value and self worth to your temples
We all have them
Our minds, bodies, and souls
But it seems like no one cares anymore
Why? Whats your reason?
Is it the money, cars jewels and clothes that keeps you blinded through the seasons?
Every year its the same things
Same music, same meanings
But yet I still rock to it
What can i say im a victim of it
I guess thats what i gotta do to get your attention
But thats not where im gone end up, did i mention
Who I really am
So blinded you cant see for yourself
Im a Queen stuck in a world full of material things with no meaning that doesnt interest me
Its not easy not being easy
Not trying to offend
But I refuse to pretend
That this is it for me
For all of us really
can you.... Better yet Will you choose to look past it
I hope but you doubt it
Lets not argue about it
You gotta remember these are just my thoughts
Think about it

L.Michelle

The New World: The Awakeing

Opening my eyes to complete darkness would usually scare the shit out of me but for some reason this time I was not.  Everywhere I turned, everywhere I looked there was only darkness.  Chills started to go up my spine and threw my chest as if something was encouraged me to look around and explore.  Why walk around nothing I thought to myself when while I stretched my arms out in front of me as if I was blind and looking for something or someone to guide me.  I do this for what seems like hours.  All of a sudden, I felt something cold like how metal feels when its cold outside yet it was soft and smooth like the foam balls we used to use when we played dodge ball in gym class. I didn’t know if I was touching a wall, a window or a door. I was just happy that I was touching an object. So I stopped and started to push.

                Really feeling stupid as fuck I got mad and started to punch the object. Then I got that feeling again but it was stronger and it made me breathe heavily. Something inside me told me to turn around.  It wasn’t like a real voice. I wasn’t hearing voices. I was more like a feeling; a strong urge to do something without knowing the reason why. So I did and I saw a light. This light was different. I started to walk towards this magnificent light. As I got closer, I started to feel emotions, overwhelming emotions. It felt like the rays of the sun was warming my body, lifting my spirit, and embracing my soul. The color of this light was like nothing I had ever seen before or have I?

                When I was 5, It was a Friday night- I remember it like it was yesterday. My grandma always gave me extra homework on Fridays since I was what you called a “gifted child”. Even though I was only 5, I had the Science, Math and Reading grade levels of a 3rd grader. She said I had to stay on my toes. The homework she gave me wasn’t any ordinary homework and she made sure I took my time and answered every question to the best of my abilities. . I wanted to go outside so badly before it got too dark because I was terrified of the dark.

                I loved nature, bugs, animals fish; it didn’t matter I loved them all and for some reason they just took to me; all of them.  That’s the day I saw the sky turn. The colors were so amazing- Fuchsia, purple and green; all at the same time. As I was catching my last lightening bug my grandma called for me “Lyric Sadé It’s about that time.” Being obedient, she only had to call once. I was a weird kid. I always thought that everyone had a purpose for being and every action and effect had a meaning. The sky being those colors just had to mean something.

“Grandma the sky is beautiful,” I said trying to stay outside as long as I could.

“It sure is little bit. You ready to let your friends go and get ready for bed?” she answered back. Looking down at the jar not ready to let them go yet I replied, “Grandma what does it mean when the sky looks like that?” as I pointed to the sky.  Code, she said the sweetest thing a grandma could say when she doesn’t know the answer, “Oh baby that’s just God laughing and smiling down on us and since he’s God, he doesn’t just turn one color, her turns as many colors as he wants.” Being 5 that was a good enough answer for me.

                As I reached the radiant light, I was no longer cold.  Flashes of light hi at me from every angle like I was the next A list celebrity with a sex tape and TMZ had the rights to my first official statement. But I didn’t get the feeling of being ashamed or disgusted. I felt loved and respected. Looking up to the sky there wasn’t a cloud in sight and those colors fuchsia, purple and green were everywhere. I thought to myself, God is happy. As I looked around and saw all the people so happy; so content it was like I was feeling all of these emotions for myself. Not a car in sight, skyscrapers nonexistent. No one was begging for food or money; everyone getting along. The more I walked, the more I felt.

                As the wind blew through my hair and my clothes that I didn’t remember putting on; it’s like the wind carried a message that blew to me then through me then on to the next living creature. The wind whispered “War no more.” I felt my soul smile.  Then a teenager and his dad walked passed and the boy asked, “Dad what’s war?” I had this feeling of being worthy, successful and free. Another gust of wind hit me. This time the message carried the feeling of being full. Full of what you might ask; I got the feeling of being full of hope, love, compassion and prayer.

                There was no such thing as a poverty line- above or below. Everyone had a purpose- a reason for being. The use of money was no longer needed. Greed, envy, all of the 7 deadly sins were things of the past. Strange foods filled the plates of the cafés that covered the streets yet they smelled so familiar. The streets were not covered in pavement; mostly grass and were people walked there was this material that had the color and durability of tar but if you feel on it you wouldn’t hurt yourself. The only fears were of dying from old age- nothing else. Looking around I thought I had died and gone to heaven.

                Just as the sun set you could see the three moons of earth. And a freakishly large planet that looked like Saturn but the rings were very different. The planet looked similar how Earth use to look except there was very little water and the ring s around the planet were all different sizes. As the moons it up the sky, the trunks of the trees and it’s leaves had this luminescent glow to them that started at the tip of the leaves and moved swiftly to the branches, through the trunk and into the grass and ground making the use of street lights not needed. It seems like we now receive nutrients from not only the sun but the three moons as well.

                Lightening bugs flew all around me like they use to when I was a kid except these lightening bugs glowed neon colors- pink, orange, yellow, green; my own little bundle of personal fireworks. As they surrounded me, I felt as if these little flying insects were saying, “Thank you thank you thank you!” Then from a far I heard a man with a familiar yet unfamiliar voice say, “My Queen, my Queen it is time.”

Then I woke up.

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L.Michelle

I love me

L.Michelle

Dont Care

The Introduction PT.2
Dont Care

Just by the way you coming at me I know your type
And I can guarantee that I am not one you would like
So while I'm being nice please don't waste you time
You wont get far with me I'm not that easy
Don't care what you got because I got my own
If no ones home up there in your head then leave me alone
To me flashy isn't class so think of something else
You think would interest me, if your truly feeling me

Don't discriminate but cant tolerate ignorance
For you to treat me less than what I royal am
Your mouth is moving but your not saying  much
I really don't care
Let me scream it in the air

You must be the type that needs to think before they speak
The last things you say can make this convo obsolete
The chick your looking for i believe is over there
Cuz you don't see me no truly

I'm a Queen
I got everything I'll ever need
Internally you cannot fool me I see clearly
Don't speak
Your speech makes you week
If you obey, just 'cuz you cute i might let you stay

Cuz i don't care don't care
I don't care don't care
Better be prepared when you step to the Queen
When you present yourself to Royalty



Cuz i don't care don't care
I don't care don't care
Shielded from his bullshit these Niggas always selling
I got all I need so intrigue me if you want me to buy in
Cuz I don't care.

A Letter to my Life

Dear Life,                                                                                             1-24-2012

I promise I will always do right by you.
I promise to always be honest and tell the truth.
Put me 1st to help others,
Change the world for all my sisters and brothers.
No one can stop us.
To make my vision happen we all gotta step up.
Fight for whats right.
Not what you think is right or what someone has told you is right but what your soul feel is right.
Always listen to your soul,
It will never guide you wrong.
Its nickname is your conscious
if you feel like you don't have one then oh shit
Lost is where you'll always be
Because without your soul you cant find me.
No one is really lost.
They just refuse to pay the cost,
To have eternal happiness,
They think its not worth it.
They'd rather be blind and stay in this Earth hell.
But there's no way I can stay.
Ready to go home I am.
Taking all my people with me
So we can really live happy and free.
Given so many chances
Wondering if they will ever get it.
Because HEaven does exist
I'm a true living witness.
Getting everything together
I'm starting to feel better
Are you ready 'cuz I am

L.Michelle

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

I'm ready to rise above it.

Not talking ‘bout racism but the image of women in the general public.

I’m surprised no one has spoken on it.

My heart hurts literally when I see

A queen who treats herself as if she’s not worthy of the real thing.

Knowing she can’t solve her emptiness with the false dreams and promises that these pretend men be selling,

She becomes cold to the world.

Nothing matters any more.

Morals out the window.

Foreget the word is the issue.

“Imma get dis paper by any means necessary”

Is her new mind fundamentals.

Even at any costs

And during the process she gets lost.

In a world where nothing matters

Living day to day only thought is to get dat paper.

Too revealing clothes catch the eyes of what this generation call ballers

And they rap sweet nothings in her ear.

But this time she listens and follows,

The paper trail to the hotels and flights just to stay one night with these Strangas.

Giving her essence to these Fellas,

Have she not heard of the Dangas??

Not just talking ‘bout STDs and HIV

But the woman she sees

When looking in the mirror the next morning

After the nigh t she chose to loose herself control and

I wonder how much was it worth to her

To sell herself worth

To ANY Drake, Wayne or Kanye with millions behind his name

Mmm Some Niggas don’t even need that much, a couple stacks in enough

And you wonder why men call women sluts

Quick cash that never last

And that’s if she even gets it

Some do it just to say it’s been done

But where they do that at Hun??

This shit makes me sick and mad

But really it’s just sad

‘Cuz as she sees millions

They see nothing, nobody, especially not a Queen

She knows their worth is in the millions

But doesn’t know that within her there’s Billions

WE NEED To RISE ABOVE IT

And take a stand for our diplomacy as queens refusing to settle for anything less of a King offering us nothing but everlasting royalty and loyalty with a ring

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT                                        

Stop letting men take samples of our sweetest thing that is oh so sacred meant only for our REAL King

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

We need to make our forever sweet fruit forbidden to ALL who trespass in our kingdom who does not display royal demeanor

We can do it and demand it

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

And instead inform him on what he will miss if he decides to jump ship

Make him think Real hard about it

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

Stop messing around with married men

Even if he not married, if he ain’t single and chasing YOU, then he automatically is not worthy of wearing your crown and leading your kingdom

To have a man like that there is NO settling down

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

Stop having babies by these men who don’t take care of the ones he already got

Be smart. Learn from his baby mama mistakes

Not to be victims do what EVER it takes

Don’t have a baby to just keep him or make him stay

‘Cuz end the end the fool you will be portrayed

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

Stop having back to back relationships

Take some time out for yourself

‘Cuz as our Princesses grow, they’ll start to think they know, the demeanor and composure of a Queen by the actions we showed

We must never forget how to teach them

We must Lead By Example

That’s the only way to save them

There’s no other way I’ll have it

In this Cold World….

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

Stop worrying about what the next Woman is doing. All Queens are naturally born to lead

So jealousy and envy amongst each other will never solve any problems

We need to come together for each other

Being All for it

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

My Queens: Stop letting the material things that have already consumed the world blind you and take the place of what matters most to us Queens when in search of our King

His Character, his morals and manners towards himself, You, your future children and the rest of the world thats what matters

His abilities to provide for his family-ALL the necessities

Stays loyal, shows respect and honors our opinions

These are the things that matter to us Queens

Hell ALL WOMEN

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

Stop letting men call us out our name

If it aint part of the Government, a nick name or even the “Ms.” Part with the last,

To disrespect us in ANY type of way is DEFINITELY NOT OK

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE

Stop disrespecting hard working men with 9-5s

‘Cuz he’s not up to par in yo eyes

Better be glad that he had a job and looked you in the eye and decided not to pass you by

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

MEN: Stop choosing these careers that only guarantee 2 things:

Death or Imprisonment

Please don’t be selfish

And leave yo Queen to take care of the thrown with no Mental, Emotional, or Physical help

Then get mad when she jumps ship

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

I Want ALL my Queens regardless of age, religion heritage or race to stand up proud and scream out loud “I AM A QUEEN”!!

With a smile on our face and say:

“NEVER WILL I AGAIN LET A FALSE KING BRING ME PAIN AND CAUSE ME TO BECOME BITTER AND GO ASTRAY FROM MY NEW WAYS. NO LONGER ARE YOU NEEDED. I’M STANDING ON MY OWN 2 FEET. THERES NOT ENOUGH MONEY, CARS, JEWELS OR CLOTHES ON THIS EARTH THAT COULD EVER MAKE ME LET GO OF MY SELF WORTH. ESPECAILLY SO EASILY. FROM NOW ON IM STRAIGHT DOING ME

WE NEED TO RISE ABOVE IT

Stop complaining and blaming everyone else for where you are right now today

Grow up be a woman and own it

Don’t like it? Get off yo ass and go to class and learn something

That might broaden your horizons so you can see clearly

It won’t be easy

But we Queens can do it

WHEN WE DECIDE TO RISE ABOVE IT

Dr. King had a dream and as you can see his came true

For mine to do the same ANYTHING I will do

My Queens: we need to rise above this and stop letting men get the best of us

My Queens would rather be stuck in unnecessary sorrow

Than to be lonely hoping and praying for a better tomorrow

Because of love; It’s not worth it

WE MUST RISE ABOVE THIS

So make them see you how you see me

‘Cuz regardless of what you see in me

I’m a Queen

 Yes we CAN rise above this if only we believe

And let EVERY Princess in EVERY City in EVERY Home b known that when she becomes of age she WILL be a Queen

So be prepared to demand authority.

L.Michelle 10.20.1987

L.Michelle